Ooohlala.

I have a confession to make. Don't laugh. Today, I had an appointment after work.

I said don't laugh.

Anyway, I saw this ad on Facebook, gave my contact details out of curiosity about how this whole shebang works, and the next day I got a phone call regarding a complimentary profiling. I agreed to come, but postponed the first meeting, and never showed up for the second date. After a week, I thought those people already forgot all about me, and it didn't really matter much. Then I got a phone call again. So I thought, what the heck, maybe it's worth checking out.

And so I went.

Basically I had to fill up 3 pages of stuff about myself and what I look for in a partner. It's quite fun actually, like a grown-up version of a slam book I used to fill-out when I was a kid and started having crushes.It enquired details like, for your ideal partner, what's the ideal height, weight, body built, race, religion, education, work, income level, preference for number of kids, preference for or against having pets, and stuff like that.

And then there's this little chit chat part with a real, live consultant. She's a nice lady. I had to tell her a summary of my colorful love life. And its demise.

She told me about how their dating agency works. So based on the profile of the candidates, they pre-match couples based on common beliefs and interests and let them meet up in events they organize. A candidate has an option of being in a group event or one-on-one date. There is a pre-consultation before the date, with tips and all; plus a post-consultation after the date, to check how it went and stuff. Well in a way this is good because you get to meet like-minded people. If you've ever experienced being stuck in a blind date as exciting as a mound of dirt, or having to shoo away advances from unsolicited admirers, I think you will appreciate this.

But eventually the business aspect of this whole dating agency thingy came up. They have this package - 6 group dates plus 12 one-one-one dates for $2500; or 3 group dates plus 6 one-on-one dates for $1400. These figures are not very accurate - but around there lah.

And I was like, OMG. Am I so desperate I have to pay this much to go out with someone?

Well maybe it's a good deal for people whose time is running out, those who are more advanced in years, or even for those younger people who are very eager to settle down right away.

I think I will just take my time. I am only 23 anyway.

But it's so weird, there is like, 6.77 BILIION people in the world - WHY IS IT SO DIFFICULT TO FIND MY MATCH?

It's easy to find someone to flirt with. Just go to a club at night, be scantily dressed, and guys would volunteer themselves to dance with you.

But who would ask me for a dance even when I am not immodestly dressed, or even when there's no actual music playing?

It's easy to find a quick fix to a longing, an instant gratification to a need of being desired. But it goes as fleeting as it comes, and leaves you more empty than you started with.

Anyway, I believe the person God made for me is just out there - and we are probably lamenting about the same thing this very moment. If only we could take a peek into the future, right. Maybe we'd both stop whining already. But no. Let God unfold the story. Then looking back, we could just laugh at our impatience and be awed about how it all worked out.