I feel so guilty for snapping at my boss a few days ago.
Last Monday, it was raining at site, and we were working under the rain. So the next day, I wasn't feeling very well but I stayed through until the end of the day, even when my friend and work colleague who felt my forehead told me that I was burning and I should go home.
So, right after work, I went to KK Hospital. I went there because it's just right across LTA, where my boyfriend works. I needed some company.
At the entrance, they had this digital tempertaure scan, and was shocked when I looked at the screen because my body was all red, indicating I had a fever. The staff quickly escorted me to the women's clinic and there I had a test for the ubiquitous H1N1 virus. They said the results would be out after 24 hours, and for the meantime I would be undergoing home quarantine.
That day, I sms-ed my project team members (read: my bosses) that I was in the hospital for check-up, the doctor had me on home quarantine, so I would be absent from work the next day. I had sympathetic responses from two of my three bosses, and one even gave me a call to check if I was alright. The third simply replied: "The result would be negative", to which I replied back, "Yep I think so too".
When I got back home I zonked out immediately, I was even wearing my working clothes to sleep because I felt really tired and sick. The next day, I got an sms from my unsympathetic boss, saying: "Results? Nobody working at the office".
This offended me big time, because I felt he was urging me to go back to work even though I was sick. So I replied to him: "If you think I'm acting I'm sick or avoiding work, you are wrong. I will show up tomorrow, I just needed some bloody rest coz I really had fever and my body is aching all over, sir."
Then he didn't reply anymore. I later found out that he showed this sms to my other bosses at the office and I think they all had a good laugh, which is okay for me, really. I wouldn't have the guts to send him this message if he wasn't somebody I'm at ease with. I tell him stuff about my love life, I b*tch to him about work, he's seen me cry countless times, and I can joke around him. So when I am upset, I am also very transparent with him.
However, even when I came back from work, I still gave him the cold shoulder and in retrospect I've been very difficult with him. And, I still haven't said sorry. =( Pride. =(
I've also shamelessly showcased my unhappy face to a lot of other people at work, which prompted even the Project Director to talk to me (which I've blogged a couple of posts back). Sometimes I'm just waiting for them to fire me, and I'd think I would be happy if they let me go - that was how miserable I was at work.
So anyway, yesterday, I summoned the courage to tell my boss (the construction manager) I want to resign. I thought he would readily agree, because for how many months now I've been underperforming and always being grumpy at work. If I were the boss and I had an employee like how I'd been acting I'd fire that person already. But surprise, surprise, he talked me out of it. Anyway, this is another long story altogether which deserves its own blog post.
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Though I complain a lot about work, I appreciate it because it feeds me and makes it possible for me to live in a beautiful house like this. Presenting....our new house.
Our living room
Our living room with the TV
A glimpse of my bedroom, the "throne" at the living room, a glimpse of our dining room.
Our dining room
Our yellllow kitchen
Another view of the dining room
Table in between Karen and Ivy's room
Another view of the living room
These are pretty much the common areas. As for my room, I just changed the sheets and added some sort of carpet, and when I was about to take a photo my camera battery died. Oh well next time! But thank you Lord for this blessing. I never really thought I'd be living in a beautiful house like this on my own, independent from my family, (with 3 beautiful housemates) a year after finishing school.
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